Archive for June, 2005

Parents!

Monday, June 13th, 2005

whenever I’m pissed and frustrated with how my life is shaping.. whenever I feel like I got 2 choices.. either to finish a full twist-less Smirnov [and NOT Ice-stupid-smirnov] or just crash it on the wall with every bit of anger I can… at these dark times,, Only 2 ppl can actually make their way to my brain cells.. only 2 ppl are there to blame.. MY PARENTS>> I just keep remembering all their flaws and all their life-or-death wrong choices…
I’m not gonna talk about my parents in specific.. I’ll just talk about general mistakes parents ALWAYS do…
1- why r they named parents?! cuz they HAD kids!!! they couldn’t just have safe sex.. they had to get kids.. US>>> into this stupid miserable planet… we’re running out of water, oil, oxygen… and god knows what’s happening with this ozone layer.. and they wanna bring yet another anathema to this world…!!!!! LOOK AROUND PARENTS>>> this ain’t not kindergarten to get kids to…!!! stop BREEDING like rabbits…
2- ur here, okay great… u can walk and u can talk and everything… but would they let go, NOOOOO.. they have to LOVE ya…!! wow,,, couldn’t they just teach us how to HUNT and MATE… and just let go… go live ur own damn life..!! NOO… they wanna cya talk, and they wanna cya in school, they wanna talk to ya about ur first kiss, help ya in ur science project, and go to PARENTS meetings… it gets even better.. THEY WANNA SEE U IN COLLEGE>>> even worse.. they want u to be successful!!!! OMG… how disturbing is that!!!!???… why can’t we be BEINGS again.. just go hunt.. okay not hunt.. just buy stuff from jungle super markets..!!
3- they’ve done all these things.. and now ur a great successful active person in ur community.. guess what?!! they wanna see ya MARRIED>>>> so they talk and talk and talk… and u being such butthead (and beavis for what it matters) u get married… gues what.. next thing u know… UR GETTING kids…!!… ahhhhhhhhhhhhh this is a nightmare… PLZ>>> can anyone just plz STOP IT>>> I mean look around ya.. cows are starting to make fun of ya… whenever I look at “la vache keri” i feel like she’s mocking me…!! monkies got actually bored with talking of how stupid u are…!!

what’s my point?!!! STOP BREEDING… maybe if u stop KILLING eachother u won’t need that awfull lot of new kids..!!!

anyways…, these thoughts only come-up in extreme situations.. other than that, I’m a very healthy person [or so says my psychiatrist]….and I’m planning to be a very successful and active part of my community… and so on.. ;) hehe
right now, I’m pretty content.. so.. I kinda LOVE my parents.. well, at least they learned from their mistake and NEVER did it again.. hehe

cheers

Love Hate Tragedy!

Sunday, June 12th, 2005

I LOVE:
My computer, Dido, chubby girls, my camera, my music collection, not doing the dishes for a whole week, sleeping late, vodka without a twist, 7Up, hosting hitchhikers, Hitchhiking myself, my MP3 player, Watermelons, watching Autumun in New York for the zillionth time, Winona Ryder, MTV2, Oasis’s new single, visiting Saladine Citadel, the light-damascene feminin arabic accent, my ma & pa, organizing my books, archiving my music, being a lonely kid and living alone, being an asssometimes, Donald Duck, Tiger in Winnie the Pooh, not answering the phone to hear ppl leaving msgs on the answering machine, politics, BBCWorld, The Tonight Show, Amin Maalouf, reading my dad’s diaries, Jerry Seinfeld, showing off whenever possible, Slunfe, old damascus, my idiot bestfriends, being the idiot I am, my 7:30am nescafe, collecting photos, bumping into things, my memory drawer, basketball, Linus Turvalds, blue [THE COLOR], Face close-up pix, Yahoo! Messenger, seeing Placebo Live, my 17′ ViewSonic, Oranges, Pasta (only if it’s Aldente! hehe), one of my pants, showers, Umayyad mosque at sunset, formatting and re-installing my system, Ziad Rahbani, Fairuze ANYTIME and being a Syrian

I HATE:
my so-called subwoofers, Cate Blanchet, Marilyn Manson, Losing something, having to do dishes when they get smelly and bug(y), being snubbed, having such a messy house, next september when my parents gonna see the house, MBC4, my mobile phone, the last pants i got, big noses, losing sleep, fighting with someone, feeling cold, buzzing someone on Y! Messenger and not getting a buzz back, birthdays, the fact that i suck in French, having an asthma fit, getting a hair-cut, heavy rain, clouds, being stuck in my room because of my stupid door lock (always happens), deadlines, not knowing what’s what, my high-school, waiting for someone, mexican beer, being bossed around, my dean of faculty, 3 of my professors, when having to fake things, doing paperwork, not having sth to watch on TV, running out of pens at 4am when u got an exam at 9am, Condolisa Rice’s teeth, white [THE COLOR], most of the cafes in Latakia, my biology techer in high-school, hi5, having to say sorry, putting myself in such stupid situations, sharing my 7up with anyone, throwing up, and not knowing what’s going on around me…

Holly Book or Civil Law?!

Sunday, June 12th, 2005

In response to Stellar’s comment on my last post on the “Protect Hijab” campaign… and her follow-up articles about the same subject.. [find them @ Stellar's Rollercoaster Journey]

Well, I’m quite familiar with Islam stellar, hehe… I’m muslem myself.. or at least born muslem and have been living within a society with a vast majority of muslems… ;)

I can see now that we have quite different coordinations regarding this particular subject… or let’s say different prioroties..

I’m not gonna be debating about the obligation of Hijab… that’s not the point (to me)… the point is which comes fist?! Quran? or Civil Law?!
for me civil law is much more hollier and important than any holly book, and that’s for the exact same reason u take Quran as much more important… civil law is written by man! Quran is not…

Me, I don’t consider myself religious in any way… I consider myself a human being.. belonging to a very creative species… That’s why I respect civil law…

let me give ya this example.. My mom doesn’t wear Hijab, but yet she’s now working in Saudi Arabia.. and she is obligated by LAW to wear Hijab.. she does… and she’s totally OK with that…
As long as the Saudi community [I have my reservation about this, but this a general example] is content with this law, it is much more important than any other obligation…same goes for France..

btw, France is the 2nd oldest republic in history and one of the oldest modern democracies on the planet… so I don’t think it’s that easy to go denying their democracy… based on individual events…

I respect ur obligations the way interpret them, I respect them to the limit… that limit is the state law….. The civil law is the one that sets ur Rights and Duties in modern societies… if the majority feels that the Quran is the best source for this law, then be it… if not… well..?! u tell me..?!

Another issue, who’s to say that ur islam is the right one.. who’s to say that ur islam is much more perfect than that of Bin Laden’s, who’s to say that Catholics in the 1400s are more rightous than those of the 2000s…?! religion is how u interpret it.. there isn’t ONE right version… and no one can tell witch is better… Religion is a very abstract concept… Humans have the duty to interpret that concept the way they want… that’s how I see this…. no one has the whole truth… I strongly believe in this fact…

Plus, I’m not religious, but I’m not anti-religion.. I don’t see myself in any religion, yet I don’t disrespect any of em… in light of that, I see this ban as a favor for Islam as culture and as a religion… it’s a shock.. to wake this giant from a long sleep… religions are much more dynamic than we think, they do evolve… they NEED to evolve… Islam needs this kind of electricity to start evloving again…

600 years ago Islam was the leading religion when it came to openess and liberality compared to other religions at that time… now it is fallen behind in this race… It hasn’t evolved a bit since the fall of Cordoba… and as a person who’s proud to belong to such culture and history, even though I don’t believe in some aspects of it, I see this in a very optimistic way…

My point is… for me, Mankind created Zeus and Afrodite… and Mankind destroyed their myth… that’s how strong we are… and that’s how creative we are… Mankind is God’s spirit or even (for me, God himself)… so, the law that a certain community agrees on is much more important than any other law….

P.S.: I don’t mean to offend any religion or any belief, and if I did, then I am very sorry about it.. and it wasn’t on purpose for sure…
P.S.2: All these thoughts are my own point of views, they might be wrong and they might be right… I’m not saying that I KNOW, I’m saying that this is what I persoanlly BELIEVE is right!

cheers

One Really Dull Story!

Saturday, June 11th, 2005

Do u see that little iron pole in the middle of the pic?!well, there IS one, I assure ya… it’s just that this pic was taken with my (MOST Hated) X600 mobile.. and it was like 3am… so… if anybody here is from Latakia, he’d recognize the spot… it’s on a shelter.. near the City Hall..

okay.. I’m totally missing the point here..

anyways..2 hours earlier that night three “very lost and very hopeless” 19yo males were wandering aimlessly in downtown Latakia.. proudly I was one of those strayed gang… they came into this pole.. which I still donno what’s his job was?!!The fat guy thought it’d be fun to just take it… infatuated with the adrenaline-aspect of the stealing process the yet-to-be-doctor said yeah sure… and as always the computer junkie went with the majority… so they took it… a 15kg iron pole.. Three 19yo males are now wandering with a 15kg iron pole on the fat guy’s back… after a while, The fat guy noticing that it wasn’t fun at all to carry this 15kg iron pole.. suggested that “It isn’t fun at all to carry this 15kg iron pole!!!”, the yet-to-be-doctor wasn’t sure this time.. and since there’s no obvious majority the computer junkie passed on the question, and tried to look like he didn’t hear it.. after a 30sec negotiations the yet-to-be-doctor took the 15kg iron pole from the fat guy… and again the three 19yo started wandering aimlessly in the ghost-ish streets of downtown Latakia… about 2:30am.. the yet-to-be-doctor realized how much NOT funny it is to carry around a 15kg iron pole… so again.. the three guys stood there trying to decide what the fuck to do with this 15kg pole…. that was when the fat guy had this brilliant idea, “What if we put it there,, on top of that VERY high and hard-to-get shelter in the middle of this park… it’ll be a symbol of us, and of how miserable this night was..!!” the yet-to-be-doctor voted yes… and so it is unanimously YES… after trying all sort of tricks to get it up there.. the three muskateers did it eventually.. and took that pic…!!!
nevertheless the next day three guys were wandering this same neighbourhood, and out of the blue, the fat guy cracks down laughing… the pole isn’t there anymore…

this pic is actually the last picture of that symbol… if anybody seen it.. or knows anything about it.. plz call…

A huge thank-u to my 2 best friends… for there ability to turn such a miserable night into a good memory… Love ya both.. inspite of ur fatness and his doctor-ish issues…!
A huge sorry to everybody for suffering all the way here through this post… sorry guys… i had to write sth!

cheers

Another reading of the "Protect Hijab" campaign

Saturday, June 11th, 2005

I read the “Protect Hijab” post on Stellar’s Rollercoaster Journey….. and I just needed to clear some points out…

Regardless of my own personal openion on the subject… I have few remarks…

1- The ban wasn’t specially designed for the Hijab.. it was literally a ban on “Religious Symbols”… that’s hell different….
2- This is a secular democracy. The ban was voted on.. and I think that it is absolutly legal… and if one wants to live in such democracy he needs to obey the simplest rules…
3- I don’t see how this ban is a violation of religious rights… I’d like to have an explanation on that?!

In a secular system, steps should be taken to separate the state and religion.. this is a basic step.. and banning religious symbols in public institution goes in that category… and in any case religion might have an effect on civil institutions I think religion goes 2nd…

Modern states are built upon a so-called “Social Contract”. By agreeing to be part of this state u are agreeing to this contract… and all the forms of this contract stressed the fact that the “group” abandons its individual rights to those of the “majority” not as individuals but as a wholesome (Jean Jack-Rouseau was one of the premiers to stress this fact)… and I believe this is exactly what’s going on in France.. and until another revolutionary State theory comes up.. personally I’m sticking with this one…

I might compare this to Smoking Ban, and some might argue that smoking is actually clinically harmful, others will argue back that religious symbols are psychlogically harmful as well, because of what they suggest… and because of the differences and separations they might cause.. I still haven’t made up my mind on this point.. but..

Finally, France is soveriegn state, and I don’t think anyone (unless he’s French) has the right to intervene in its internal affairs.. and I think that the Mufti of France made that clear in earlier statements.. (that I don’t recall vividly) but I believe it was about -this issue being strictly a French internal issue that need to be solved between the French Muslim community and the French authorities- and so it happened… it was solved that way.

I SHAVED

Friday, June 10th, 2005
yeah.. i did… with razor and everything… I feel sooooo clean right now… u can’t imagine!!! I feel like I’m snowhite!!!
 
AND
 
noo I’m not a retard… I just wanted to share, that’s all…!
 

A Treason Draft

Friday, June 10th, 2005
I just finished reading Muhammad MAGHOUT’s latest book.. “East of Eden, West of God… – شرق عدن، غرب الله…”… all I know is that I have to talk about it.. I have to say sth.. the only problem is that I can’t… I wish i had the ability to describe feelings, paint them.. I can’t.. I can only scream them out.. this bitterness that rolls all over u when reading this book.. bitterness is the keyword for this compilation… I donno… the only ppl who would realy understand what I’m talking about.. is those who had read his “I Will Betray My Country – سأخون وطني”…
 
أيها الوطن الغارق في التفاهات
لن أنقذك مهما كان عندي من وسائل
فلطالما أسأتَ إليَ
من الرأس حتى أسفل القدم
حرمتني رؤية النجوم
تأمل الأفق
انتظار الفجر
رائحة الخبز
رسائل الحب
هدايا الأعياد
وحتى النوم على الرصيف
كنت تدفعني دفعاً
بجبالك وسهولك وثرواتك
للجنون
للمصحات العقلية
ومعسكرات الإبادة
وأنا أسترضيك
وأستعطفك
والآن تريد أن أنظف ما تحتك وفوقك من خراب
وقد حذرتك مراراً
بأن الزمن ليس ساعة حول معصمك
أو قبعة على رأسك
أو سوطاً بيدك
أو حاجباً أمام مكتبك
عفواً
ليس عندي وقت أضيعه فعندي موعد هام
مع عاهرة!
ومصابة بالإيدز والزهايمر.
فمت بغيظك…
 
Only words like these can actually take ur mind off what’s going on.. can actually make u forget that Samir QASIR was blown off last week, that someone like Naji al-ALI isn’t safe with his pen, that Major General Mustafa TLAS is talking in his diaries about his top of the line sterility treatment, that Mr. Saber FALHOUT is demanding the abolishment of the “Emergency Law” that he himself announced 42 years ago..  that the same ppl who were responsible for the Tadmur masacre are now the angels of democracy and reform…
All I want.. is to be able to breathe, I just… when I have my asthma fit, I wanna be able to open the window and actually BREATHE!! I wanna breathe…I don’t wanna be afraid to show how much I love this land!! IS THAT TOO FUCKING MUCH TO ASK?!!!!
 

*The text is titled “A Treason Draft – مشروع خيانة” from the “East of Eden, West of God… – شرق عدن، غرب الله…” book..
 

Punches

Thursday, June 9th, 2005

Punch No1: The sum of ALL Arab countries’ GDPs is less than Spain’s…

Punch No2: Spain is the poorest memeber of the EU…

Punch No3: UNDP Report: Syria is gonna be a net importer of Oil by 2008…

Knock Out: Dr. Bouthaina Shabaan: Our economy is so strong, it’s almost bulletproof!

Ouch… that hurts…

Hurray, I’m learning French!!!

Thursday, June 9th, 2005


soo, one of the most important stuff going on in my life lately are my french courses… I’m doing them at the CCF-Latakia…..
has anybody of ya studying french noticed how stupid the language is… I mean i like french ppl and everything and they’re so sweet, lovely and there nice girls there I bet… but R YA GUYS THAT STUPID NOT TO BE ABLE TO DEIFFERNCIATE BETWEEN MALES AND FEMALES>>> all the grammar in French is about males and females… is it realy that hard in france to notice the difference without having to actually complicate the whole fucking language with all these nonsense!!!!! okay okay I know Arabic does the same… but HEY we’re a developing nation.. we’re allowed to be as much STUPID as we want..!!!!!!!! but ur FRANCE>>> HELLO!!

anways.. I’m losing track here… so my D2 teacher is a lovely french lady… let’s just call her Mrs. D… she’s soooo great and “sympa” + she’s a blonde with this PERFECT haircut EVER… I donno how she does that but IT IS PERFECT>>> anyways…
two things I HATE the most bout her..
1. she MOCKS syrians!!! SHE DOES>>> and SHE DOES IT WITH ATTITUDE>>> and in a reallyyyyyy mean way.. how?! well, whenever we’re talking about almost ANYTHING… she says sth like “Yeah, well syrians aren’t noisy! are they?!” with a little devilish smile… and before u know the whole class starts “Yeah RIGHT” and starts making jokes… OMG PPPLLLLLLL>>> HOW MUCH IDIOTS CAN U ACTUALLY BE??????????? can’t ya see she’s MOCKING YA>>> SHE’S RUBBING UR NOSE TO THE DIRT>>> and U don’t even KNOW!!! and whenever she does that… she truns at me with a VICTORY smile… NANANANANANAAAAAAAA!!!!!! OMG>>> at that time I’m like “HEY where were ya when my damascene ANCESTORS KNOCKED UR ANCESTORS in TOLOUSE HA ;) ????????????!!!! I bet, u weren’t drinkin ur Pina Colada on a Hawaii beach ha?!! hehe……. comon sister, let’s settle this right now right here!!!!! arghhhhhhh”!! *Snubby french*!! <<but u don’t realy.. get the chance to say it…>> :(
2. SHE mocks me… she just loves to give me a laughing round everytime I sleep-off during a class… or when I’m late… I mean… How mean is SHE!!! it’s enough humiliation that i’m sleeping in my seat.. to hear everybody LAUGHING ABOUT IT!!!

well… it isn’t realy that bad realy… I was just kidding… cuz i wanted to talk about these courses and i got nothing to say… cuz stupid me couldn’t catch a SINGLE french word during 6 months courses <<AND COUNTING>>!!!

sooo… thanx Mrs. D… for turning this horrible course into an enjoyable experience with lots of mocking.. ;) and I’m actually starting to get over the fact of how STUPID french language is… and Starting to like it… thanx to ya!! hehe ;) I’ll be looking forward to the next course… ofcourse if u don’t shoot me the next time I walk through that door.. ;)

cheers

stupid stupid stupid

Thursday, June 9th, 2005
“receiving dept., 3 a.m.
staff cuts have socked up the overage
directives are posted.
no callbacks, complaints.
everywhere is calm.
Hong Kong is present
Taipei awakes
all talk of circadian rhythm

I see today with a newsprint fray
my night is colored headache grey
daysleeper
the bull and the bear are marking
their territories
they’re leading the blind with
their international glories
I’m the screen, the blinding light
I’m the screen, I work at night.
I see today with a newsprint fray
my night is colored headache grey
don’t wake me with so much.
daysleeper.
I cried the other night
I can’t even say why
fluorescent flat caffeine lights
its furious balancing
I’m the screen, the blinding light
I’m the screen, I work at night
 
I see today with a newsprint fray
my night is colored headache grey
don’t wake me with so much. the
ocean machine is set to 9
I’ll squeeze into heaven and valentine
my bed is pulling me.
gravity
daysleeper. daysleeper.
daysleeper. daysleeper. daysleeper”
R.E.M. – Daysleeper
 
well, i donno why i’m posting this song… maybe cuz I slept until 3pm… so I wouldn’t remember that I actually passed out on the Physics 1 course… goddddddd… I’m so fucking stupid… ah… I hate me!

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